The last few days I've been trying to get myself together...it's personal thing, and I'm not gonna spoil every little details here since I made promise to myself to really 'close old dusty the book' and move on...
The thing is, I'm still thinking it was only a bad dream (just like any other dream)...I never really moved on, and it's been more than a month...I hate the feeling of losing, he's like my best friend, we talked and laugh about stupid videos on youtube, and I hate to think the idea of me without him...what should I do, where would I go, should I wait for him to comeback, should I call him? and all the things I could ever think about to make things better...
It hurts sooo bad, since I barely remember how it feel to get my heart broken...my world is totally upside-down, whenever I listened to my iPod and the songs he gave me come up, It stings, I cried...I removed all of his pics in my phone, and his texts...anything...but it still hurt, it sucks *sigh* :(
Than I started to read about some break-up quotes online, or in twitter...and realized that I'm not alone, I am not the only one dealing with the heartbreaks...I try to give my poor heart a little room to breath, and try to learn about myself all over again...I don't hate what he's doing to me, he was important to me once and now that he's gone all I can do is pray and forgive...
it sounds very cliche, but in the end I need to let go, and move on with life...if we dare to be in love, we should be ready to get our heartbroken...I still miss him sometimes, but I still wish him to be happy in life...
See you later :)
